The big challenge that God has given me in this season is to take responsibility for my life. One of the big areas that He has called me to take responsibility is my health.
For 14 years I have struggled with chronic pain and digestive issues. It has been a ridiculous amount of pain and stress. I have had to leave multiple ministry assignments early, have been unable to participate fully in others, and even recently had to resign a job in large part because my health issues became a level of contention. I recently weighed in at 200 lbs: the heaviest that I have ever been. The brutal honest truth is this: I need to go on the offensive with my health. Something needs to change. I’m over it.
I’m tired of being held back because of my health. I’m tired of being a victim (and acting like a victim) of pain. I do not like the woman that I have become in the pain. I have surrendered for too long when God has called me to be a victor.
Two weeks ago we decided that things were going to change. We joined a wellness company that replaces the toxic chemicals in our home with cleaners and personal products that are not harmful. We started taking vitamins and exercising regularly. About a month before that we started eating vegetables with almost every meal and making sure we had enough protein in our diet. In a couple weeks I will be planting a small vegetable garden to begin eating some basic foods that are not filled with pesticides and hormones. We don’t do things perfectly, but we are on the right track.
For both my husband and I, taking care of our health has become a major priority, and I do not believe that this is in any way separated from our spiritual lives. God has given us our bodies and the ability at our fingertips to make better choices about what we consume. There are far too many things that God has called us to accomplish in our short time on earth to let things that we do have some control over be an obstacle to accomplishing His will.
So this is my statement – I’m over it. I’m over having health problems. I know that I cannot control everything related to my health or my husband’s health, but we can make better choices. And we choose to do so. Stay tuned for the progress.
Oh, and you should read this verse:
“Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but only one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may win. Everyone who competes in the games exercises self-control in all things. They then do it to receive a perishable wreath, but we an imperishable. Therefore I run in such a way, as not without aim; I box in such a way, as not beating the air; but I discipline my body and make it my slave, so that, after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified.” -1 Corinthians 9:24-27 NASB