Right now I am sitting in Starbucks listening to carefree music over the speakers that should be calming me down, but is actually annoying me. I had dedicated tonight to working on leadership material for this training course I am developing, but the whole evening has gone downhill. Weeks of work and 45 pages later and I am considering throwing it all out the window and starting over.
Chelsea, that is the absolute worst way to start a blog post. Yep, that’s probably right. But it’s honest. This is me being honest right now.
I can’t do this. I absolutely can’t do this. And then I remember the quote that I have been preaching to myself all week: “You will be the most tempted to quit when you are the closest to your calling.” (Steven Furtick).
Like, dude. What? I used to think that quote was so true, except right now when I’m in the moment and I feel the farthest away from accomplishing my objective. I came here to finish this, not dig myself deeper into a hole. I’m sitting here staring at pages and pages of great material and it feels empty.
Why does it feel empty? I’ve written a great class…awesome for study. There’s one problem: it’s not me. This isn’t who I am. This isn’t my style. This whole thing is put together the way I think it SHOULD be done…not the way I would teach.
I wonder how often this happens for us in life. We are frustrated in certain areas, not because we are doing something badly, but because we are doing things the way we think they SHOULD be done, rather than the way we were uniquely created to do them. Then we end up in Starbucks at the end of our rope, and no one wants to be there…at least at the end of our rope…although we might still should end up in Starbucks.
I guess what I’m trying to say is: if you’re going to end up in Starbucks, make it a happy thing. You don’t have to do things the way they have always been done…or even the way they have ever been done. God created you unique, so be unique. Love Jesus and disciple others…and do it in the way that only YOU can do it.
So today, if you are finding yourself at the point of giving up on a project or calling…ask yourself the question, “Am I frustrated because I am limiting myself to the way I think it SHOULD be done?” Then go get some Starbucks (preferably a Chai Tea Latte with six pumps of vanilla…just kidding…get what you want) and do it like only YOU can. Ready…set…GO!