“We say we follow the Lord step by step, but do we really?” These were wise words spoken to me by a good friend yesterday.
It’s so true…we say so many things in church, especially singing, and we don’t take the time to figure out if we really mean them. For example, this concept of step by step…do we really understand what it means to follow that way and to trust God for what we don’t know?
I don’t remember it being hard to say “Yes” to a direct leading of God. It was not hard to say “Yes” to serve at Mount Rushmore when He opened the door to do so. Although I struggled to get over myself, the decision was easy. God said it, so I did it. Period. I wasn’t necessarily happy about it, but I did it anyway. Same with moving to Ecuador. Although I wanted to get married soon and I definitely had the opposite opinion in the matter, God said, “Go”, so I went. No questions asked.
For me, at least, it is harder to follow when the path does not seem clear; when I wonder what I am saying “Yes” to exactly. It was yesterday that I realized the lesson in all of this is the same as it was with Mount Rushmore and Ecuador – dying to self. Before, I was dying to my ideas of how my life was going to turn out and giving God my dreams and desires. Now, I am surrendering my need to see what God is doing as I continue to give up my ideas of how my life is going to turn out, and surrendering to Him my dreams and desires.
Another way to put it is this: I am surrendering my need for control and learning how to let my life be led by Love. If it’s not really about the destination, but about the journey and WHO I am journeying with, then my perspective and focus do need to change. And I think that truly makes sense when we look at our lives from an eternal point of view. What do I want God to say about me when I stand before Him one day? I can’t think of a more devastating thing than to hear from His mouth, “I never knew you. Away from Me.” If it’s about knowing Him…then I want to know Him…forget everything else. Often I have been too focused on knowing WHAT the next step is that I have forgotten WHO I am supposed to be knowing.
What did the treasure hunters in Jesus’ parables gain in selling all they owned? They gained the pearl; the treasure hidden in the field. Truly, the reward is not the satisfaction of a job well done. The reward is Jesus. He is the pearl of great price; He is the hidden treasure our hearts have been searching for. If I lose everything else, I want to rest in the knowledge that I know Him and that I am known by Him.
Are you frustrated in trying to figure out what direction your life is headed? Remember it’s not the WHAT, it’s the WHO that God is leading you toward. The WHAT happens when we truly fall in love with the WHO. Ask God to redirect your focus today.