This morning I was continuing to read a book that has been both inspiring and challenging to me. Today I reached a point in the book where she was talking about how her passion for the children of war-torn Africa had led her to write a few different types of curriculum for healing and step into political activism. I literally put down the book. I could not keep reading. The thought that went through my head was, “I could never do something like that.”
In fact, that thought has gone through my head a lot lately. Sometimes it’s not simply, “I could never do something like that”, but rather, “I could NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS do something like that.” I realized today when I hit that wall that this is a phrase I need to cut out of my self-talk. If I can truly do ALL THINGS through Christ who gives me strength, then I need to stop believing the lie that all these things are impossible for me, a child of God.
Now, it is very true that I will never win a Nobel Prize for discovering the cure for cancer. Probably because I am not into chemistry or numbers or whatever branch of science that would require to begin with. I am not called to be a scientist, and I have no problem with that.
I am, however, talking about the things that we face in our lives related to our calling; our “anything but that, but I know I have to do that” kinds of things. We all have them, and we all face the decision to entertain the lies that say it is simply impossible and that we don’t have what it takes.
The thing we must understand is that godly ambition is not the opposite of humility. Humility is seeing God in His rightful perspective and myself in my rightful perspective. I recognize that without His help, I could not do these things. However, bowing to the pressure of a situation and degrading myself is not humility; it is a slap in the face to the God who created me, believed in me, and called me to do it. As humans we stumble and sometimes we fall, but we can’t give into the temptation to stay there. The beauty of grace is that it picks us up, brushes us off, and sends us once again.
God alone knows what you are capable of, and in the big things as well as the small things, don’t allow the phrase “I could never” to grow in your mind. Simply let your “yes” be “yes” in obedience to His voice, one step at a time. And someday you will look back and be amazed at what God could do through you.