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It’s a mighty brave thing to say to God: “Please share Your heart with me. Break my heart for what breaks Yours.” In the moments that I have prayed that prayer and God comes down to break my heart, it has been almost more than I could bear. In my personal journey, that has nearly always happened around the topic of the orphan crisis in the world today.
I have recognized in myself that when my heart is not open to feeling the anguish of the Holy Spirit, it is easy to be content where I am and complacent to anything outside my own current preoccupations. My spiritual life is minimal and does not have much fruit. My prayer life sees few results and I tend to push my own agenda in the secret place. However, when I open my heart up to the heart of God, the painful but fruitful process begins.
Honestly, anguish is the heart of true intercession. We can go down our prayer list and say, “God, help Jane Smith with this issue in her life,” but until we feel the anguish of her situation and God’s deep desire to inundate her life with His love, we have not even breeched the surface of what it means to truly intercede for someone. How many of us are willing to put forth the energy and the effort to dive into the heart of God? We will often study theology or have spiritual conversations all day long, but we shy away from following through on the common “break my heart” prayer. It sounds pretty and poetic, but are we ready to truly anguish over the things that anguish God’s heart?
I pray that I am. I pray that tomorrow I will be even more ready. Lord, here I am.