This morning I had the opportunity to watch the documentary Compelled By Love about the life of Heidi Baker and I was blown away and challenged by the passion in her life for Jesus. Just when I think that I truly love Jesus, I realize that I do not love Him nearly enough. His love doesn’t overflow from my heart to others nearly enough. However, what a way to start 2014 with the focus of my heart set on passionate love for My Savior!
I know that my life will not look like Heidi’s, nor will it look like anyone else’s that I admire. My life will look exactly like God wants Chelsea’s life to look, and I’m excited to see what He does with it. I am excited to give Him everything.
I’m not going to lie; the idea of a world wide open and full of possibilities is scary. People ask me what I’m going to do in a year when my contract ends with Extreme, and I don’t even know where to begin imagining. It’s hard to wrap my mind around giving up my expectations and all I thought was going to take place and embrace the great unknown with Jesus. I want to be available and I want to be ready. I want to live life with eyes wide open and in great expectation of all that God will bring. I don’t want to settle for anything less than the best He will give me. I don’t want to be anything less than the best that I can be for Him.
I have to constantly give my fear over to God, however rational the fear might seem in the moment. A life of faith is a life of decision, and I choose trust.
I want to shine so bright! I want love to pour out from me like a shattering glass that simply cannot keep it in. Whatever regrets or disappointments I carry about myself in the past year, I lay them at the feet of Christ. It is a new beginning now. As Bethel Live puts it, “This is what you do: you make all things new. You make me come alive! It’s a new season; the old has passed away!”
Even if it takes my feelings a while to catch up, I know exactly where I stand. I know exactly who I am. I know exactly where I belong – in the presence of Jesus. Lord, keep me there! Keep me walking in everything You are! Light up my life with Your love!