The past few days, while days of victory, have also been days of great struggle for me. In the midst of hearing of several friends struggling with life and death situations, I have also been praying deeply for my family as a close family member has been in the hospital and may be nearing her entrance into eternity. Something about Christmas being so near makes all of these situations twice as hard. Lately I have been dealing with crazy dizziness, headaches, and stomach aches. As we left the house tonight to go to our discipleship class we were leading, my body basically froze in pain. I had to stop every few steps and fight tears to make it to the house and back. It seems that Satan has been working overtime trying to attack friendships as well.
This morning during our 4am prayer time, my heart was so heavy. However, God surprised me in the midst of it all by reminding me of His deep passion for my heart. I realized in that moment that come what may, I am loved. I realized that I am never alone, and I have never been more thankful for eternal hope. I realized that this is what it means to follow Christ – no matter the cost. This is what it means to worship Him – no matter the circumstance.
During our devotional time as a team this morning, our pastor read from Psalm 46. I want to share verses 1-3, 10-11:
“God is our refuge and strength,
always ready to help in times of trouble.
So we will not fear when earthquakes come
and the mountains crumble into the sea.
Let the oceans roar and foam.
Let the mountains tremble as the waters surge!
Be still, and know that I am God!
I will be honored by every nation.
I will be honored throughout the world.
The Lord of Heaven’s Armies is here among us,
the God of Israel is our fortress.”
I am thankful for a God who is so great that every power and authority must ultimately answer to Him. How amazing it is to me that this same God sees me and takes the time to always remind me how precious I am to Him.
You know what? It doesn’t matter what you are going through right now. You may be walking through a hailstorm in the desert, a seemingly impossible and terrible combination. I have seen enough in ministry, especially lately, to know that Satan doesn’t play fair. He’ll take advantage of opportunities to kick you when you are down. However, we must not let him have the victory over our lives or our emotions. God is king, even in the hailstorm. Praise Him. Thank Him. Stay true. The beautiful sunrise over the horizon is on its way.